J-term definitely has a way of making a person think. It's probably due to the fact that during it you do completely nothing and some how can muster a "legitimate" reason to say that it's alright to be a couch potato. When you've watched 8 movies, started in on all the seasons of the Office, plus played the Office DVD board game twice, and have slept more in one day than over 3 months all in one week, there gets to be a point where your brain starts to be fulfilled with many thoughts- some very random, some deep, and others are the ones that you have been pushing off for forever. Due to being a random person, this blog could be interesting and might not make complete sense. I'm also getting hungry.
So, break was great. Again, not much happened which was wonderful. It's was great to spend time with family and just relax with no responsibility or stress. By far the best part was going to Indianapolis for New Year's. But every break is never long enough and I'm always dreading going back to school. It's quite frustrating because I know that I'm supposed to be at Taylor and that there are people here who love me and are life-long friends, but I still have a super hard time coming back to this place. I was talking to my sister, Julie, about this right before I left and she made me realize something about myself that I had never really picked up on before. I've always been ready to move on and to try new things. By the end of 6th grade, I was ready to get out of middle school (but come on, who isn't?) and then half way into high school, I was ready for college. Now I'm here and have experienced it all (some things way more than I wanted to) and I'm getting antsy again. I want to get on with real life, whatever that is. How is it that I'm still just a little sophomore, but I want out?
Is it because college hasn't been the greatest experience for me? Or because I want to be doing something meaningful? In which case, am I not doing meaningful things right now? That, by far, is not true.
In chapel on Friday, the speaker talked about the mountains and plains of our lives. Basically, what he said was that even if we aren't experiencing a high point in our life, if we're doing the day-to-day activities, it is still just as important- if not more. We still can do God's will; we can still do something meaningful. This really struck me hard. Right now, my boyfriend is experiencing one of those highs: jumping off cliffs, building relationships, being all holy in Indonesia. That's great- really great. I can't wait to hear of all the incredible things that God did through him and the rest of his team. But, how is what he's doing right now any more important than what I am doing here, even if I am stuck in Upland, IN? It's not. They are both apart of God's will. And I don't have to make J-term super meaningful through these great acts or finally breaking through to the girls on my wing. Just doing what God wants for me to do each day is enough, even if it's just hanging out with a wing mate and making silly movies.
So, I guess I'm learning to be content wherever I am. It's difficult for someone who is impatient, restless, and adventuresome. I clearly see that I am suppose to be here at Taylor, so why always be looking to the future when the excitement is right in front of my nose?
On a different note, this J-term is turning me into a morning person. Yay for suprises!
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